“I am scared of accessing my Warrioress energy” was what I shared, nervously, standing up in front of hundreds of other women at the One Woman Conference last year, run by the inspirational leader Joanna Martin.
Fast forward a few months…
… I am reading a book at the moment called “It Didn’t Start With You” by Mark Wolynn about Family Constellations and in an exercise in the book, you have to identify your greatest fear and core belief which for me were “I will be attacked” and “I am not safe”.
So I did the exercise and identified memories connected to these beliefs including a rape on my corridor at in halls of residence while at university, being punched in the nose in self defense classes and a very recent one of watching Outlanders (TV programme) and feeling physically sick, shocked, abhorred and incensed at a particular scene of violence towards a woman, which seemed to be the most intense memory out of all of them, including the earlier ones.
I share this with my EFT tapping swap partner and started tapping on this scene. I felt so much anger and rage in my hands. As these feelings intensified and I wanted to shake my whole body and it felt like the injustice towards the woman in the programme and women in general. Once I’d released as much of the emotion as I felt could with EFT in that moment, I felt a deep need to run and shout. So I finished the session early and changed back into my running clothes (having already been for a run today already and was all dressed up for my next client!) and went for a run.
As I ran fleeting new feelings of strength and courage emerged that I have not experienced before as if somehow it was my duty to connect with this power, on behalf of all women.
I turned off the road and ran through a field (which usually brought up feelings of unsafety), shouting and releasing all the trapped energy in my body and felt fantastic, wild and free. Instead of sticking to the footpath, I ran into the field and lay down in the grass, staring up at the beautiful blue sky. When I felt I’d drunk in enough nature and beauty, I got up and started walking back when suddenly my phone started playing my favourite music by Karen Drucker. Instinctively I started dancing my newly found joy and freedom. What was even weirder was that the phone played a random mashup of all my Karen Drucker music!
I truly feel that neural pathways are being rewired with new beliefs of safety, freedom and Warrioress Energy!
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